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Friday, October 30, 2009

Seriously...I don't want YOU to go !!!



U told me that u're going to leave...
I was shocked...sad...
I dunno what to do...what to say...
U told me to enjoy the moments we have...

I know...
And I try not to think about it anymore...
But I can't...
What u said that night seriously make me wanna cry...

I wanted to ask u not to go...
I wanted to ask u izzit a must that u must go there...
I wanted to ask u to stay with me...

But I ain't telling him what I wanted to tell him...
I won't ask him neither...
I can't be selfish...



STOP THINKING ABOUT IT !!! TAN XUE REN !!!



Miss...my beloved ♥



T
ODAY...
finally free from EXAM !!! hahaha !!!
no books ! no papers ! no pencil box ! no TEACHING ! no more exam ! hahaha !!!
wanna go CRAZY iiieeee already!!! :P

only 13 of us came to school today...
others went to kilang kraf...me, eelyn and lingsze stayed in class gossiping only...sze mei joined us later because she got nothing to do also...we were just sitting there chatting...freaking bored!

During Mr.Yap's period, I did something silly la...die la this time! T.T
I keep talking about his 'special lover', Miss Lee...and I 100% guaranteed that he heard it !!!
My friends keep warning me not to talk about Miss Lee in front of him...but i can't control myself la...

Haiz...why??? I'm a pure Chinese but I dunno how to speak CANTONESE !!! even SK students can speak better than me la !
My friends listened to my Cantonese and they laughed like MAD la ! so sad la :(
From NOW, I'm going to improve my CANTONESE !!!
so, everyone!!! speak Cantonese with me !!!

I was thought not going to school actually...but because of HIM i came to school...
And...
Gave him a SUPRISE ! but not a suprise la actually...

Dunno whether he like it or not...
but anyway, thanks to eelyn, ling sze and someone who gave my lots of ideas.....
I love u guys !!!



I'll remember TODAY, always...




Tuesday, October 27, 2009

Exam gonna END soon !




>.< !!!



Gambateh ! Gambateh !


Exam gonna END soon ... can't wait anymore !!!

I wanna rest badly...
I wanna sleep ... I wanna ............ :P

Today is moral paper ...
A lot of nilai's gotta memorize ... My BRAIN gonna 'explode' larhx ...
1,2,3 BOOM ****

Before that, I had History paper ...
I was very sick that day that I can't even remembered what I've studied before that ...
I think very hard ... trying to remember what I've memorize but nothing came out from my brain ... NOTHING !!!
I feel like wasting my time studying, memorizing something USELESS !!! I even slept nearly at 3 in the morning just because I wanna memorize it ... but seems like wasting my time ... :(

I hate myself ...
Why I always sick ??? Stomach pain ?? Gastric ?? I don't even know !!!
And .......
I've to make people worried about me ...
I feel sorry ... for always troubling my friends ...

Sorry ...

Sunday, October 25, 2009






One Month .....



History tomorrow ...

Urgh!!! HISTORY tomorrow...somemore paper 1 & paper 2!!!
Die la this time T.T

Going to sleep late tonight...
Again....

My panda eyes very big d arrr.....use how many cucumber also cannot d la!!! haih...


happy one month anniversary !

Saturday, October 24, 2009

U're the one ...






AM I MAKING THING WORSE ???


I won't be happy if u're not happy...






Regret~

I regret...
regret that what i had told him...

I want him to be happy...
But not like that...
I think he's angry, mad of me...

He asked me to tell him what i'm thinking now...
I had told him...
But now he's not happy...
And
I'm not happy too...

If I know that...
I would rather keep it to myself...
I wouldn't let him sad, unhappy...

I'm sry...

So sad ...

Got my physic paper 2 results yesterday ...
And
I got 33 out of 100 !!!

Actually i already expected to get this bad-dddieee results ...
I was telling all my friends that I'm not sad at all ... and in fact I was telling them that I was happy not to failed ...

I was sad ...
I wasn't sad because i got this low marks ...
I'm afraid of letting my parents know about this ... I know they'll feel disappointed ... So, i decided to keep it to myself ...

Thursday, October 22, 2009

Phew ~

Lucky he looks fine today ... hope he'll be fine always : )

Today exam again...
English today...paper 1 & 2 quite hard : (
I've not enough time to finish my essays ...
aiya, just simply hentam la...don't care anymore adi...

And finally, today can rest a while...time to SLEEP !!! yeepee !!! so happy :P
tmr gt dance practice again...feel like don't want to go...tired of dancing : (


miss him ...

Monday, October 19, 2009

Cursing ~



I HATE CURSING !!!


I HATE HIS CURSING !!!


Sunday, October 18, 2009

I LOVE her ...

Looking at her...
My heart was pain...and i realized i was crying too...

I want her to stay healthy FOREVER !!!
I want her to be happy FOREVER !!!

Please.....
STAY WITH ME !!!



and u, SHUT UP !!!

Tuesday, October 13, 2009

A Trip To Big River ...

Went Sungai Besar last Sunday...about 2 hrs+ to reach there...
ate seafood there...sooooooooo delicious >.<

Well, took a lot of photos there...


my sis :P



me :)



boat-tiiiieeee ....



very cute :P


bigggieee house ...




Small pond .....




Fish-ishhhh ....



Pond again ....




Although its tired, being there whole day....but its FUN !!!


miss him...










My mind was blank...totally blank...really dunno what to do .....






Monday, October 12, 2009






SAD !!!

DUNNO WAT TO DO !!!








RESULTS ~

Went Sentosa Medical Centre tdy....


AND


Results for check up :



Irritate Bowel Syndrome (IBS)



I'm the 'lucky' 14 % of people in the whole world who get this illness !!!

Feeling BAD !!!

I dunno why i will think that...I was feeling so bad,so guilty for what I've done...
I dunno why i not even dare to look at her...

Today, she looked at me...for the first time she looked at me...that time was during recess time...
I was walking with eelyn and suddenly when i looked up, she looked at me, straight to my eyes...I was scared, guilty...I dunno why...

I straight away looked another way...and i quickly walked off with eelyn...
I was very nervous, keep asking eelyn whether was she still looking at me a not...I found a place far away from her and sat down...

I was looking at the book...pretending to study...my mind was thinking what to do now...should I go there or not?should I evade her?should I look at her?I was very confused...dunno what to do at all...

Somebody, HELP ME PLS !

Saturday, October 10, 2009

Pictures of me ~

Ignore my ugly mouth :P




And Again :P



okay :)



still sleepy la .. :P




Love THIS !!!

Tired + Sleepy Mode

Woke up 7 in the morning...went marketing with my papa...a lot of people there shouting man! mari mari ! 1 barang 1 ringgit... OR eh..lenglui, lengzhai...come here la..come come..very CHEAP only...

Carried a lot of things afta finished marketing...bought more than 6 big packs of fruits !! My hand so pain larhx...T.T

Had breakfast at a 'kopitiam' somewhere in manjalara...my stomach almost 'burst'...eating 2 big bowls of noodles !!! XP

Then headed for tuition...so sleepy la...i was still blurred blurred when i reached there...my lovely pn haris wan to 'kill' me off lor...i asked her something that i shouldn't asked..she repeated the same thing to me but seems that i'm still in my sleepy mode...

Hmm...at first wanna went for a check up...because stomach pain came back to find me !!! Alarh, Geram betul larh !!! But when i went there, my stomach no pain pulak, so my papa said when i stomach not well again then only come for check up la because no pain how to see doctor???

Tired +Sleepy Mode now !!!

Friday, October 9, 2009

Childhood memories....



Miss that moment ..........




Me , my bro & my younger sister





~ Me again ~




Lagi.... Me again !!!
Chian Ying :

Happy Birthday !!!



~I LOVE U ~


Urrgh !!! Biology..Failed !!!

Today Biology 1& 2...
I dunno how to do at all :( I was very disappointed because I put a lot of effort in it and I dunno how to do, not a single one !

Paper 1
Its all objective question...there are totally 50 questions and seriously, more than half of it I was simply hentam-ing...

Paper 2
4 structure questions & 2 essay questions...Not even one answer I can guaranteed that it's correct...I've studied respiration, digestion, photosynthesis, breathing mechanisms, hyper/hypotonic solution, isotonic solution but only photosynthesis came out today...And I don't even expected that the parts of cow will came out today ! And I didn't label it man ! 4 marks there and it was gone now !!! T.T


I gave up ! totally wanna tear the paper into pieces !!!


Anyway...
I think its FAILED !!!

Thursday, October 8, 2009

Blurred ~

Chemistry.................
only two words to say : ITS SUCKS !


However, thanks to WI HONG, who helped me si
nce last month on chemistry...
I was very very very blurred and can't even get wat he trying to tell me but he was very patient and taught me everything i wanna noe...all i wanna tell him is, thank you very much ! I appreciate it !


Chemistry Paper 1 & 2 today...

Paper 2 was hard..hmm, paper 1 still ok but it still hard for me...What Wi Hong taught previously helped me a lot in today's exam...Although maybe i can't get good results for chemistry, but i did try my best >.<


Tomorrow....
Biology Paper 1 & 2...

I don't think i can do it well...that's one of my worst subject...no matter how, i think i gotta memorize everything by tonight !




miss him, always~



Haiz..going to sleep late! AGAIN !!!
PRAY HARD !!! >.<



Tuesday, October 6, 2009

Argh !!! Exams~

just start exam today....
chinese paper today...its easier than i expected before...
i was so sleepy during exam..i wanna sleep badly but i can't because i've not done my paper yet..
finally the first day of exam...bye!!

thanks to sharul, our comedy fella !!! always make me, eelyn and lingsze laughed but sometimes annoying too...shhh..don't tell shah :P

tomorrow..add math !!! sucks la !!!
i'm really nervous about it...tonight gotta sleep late again !!

miss him...

Thursday, October 1, 2009

EXAM !!!

Final Exam around the corner !!!
and I not prepared for it yet...especially for the subjects Chemistry, Biology, Physics and History...
Almost every subjects haven't teach finished yet but everything is covered for the exam...
I was blurred all the time...

Ku Zailan is the worst teacher larhx...
He can't finished our syllabus and then he wanted us to attend his extra class...somemore on Sunday, early morning !!

super duper hate ku zailan !!!

Stress !
Need Help !!
Seriously !!!