Friday, September 25, 2009

New Life

I'm happy !!!

New Life !!!

Tuesday, September 22, 2009

Heart Broken

I'm sad..very very unhappy.....
Because of him.....just because of him........
I really hate myself...why can't I be more tough, stronger....why am I so weak???!!

And now, I really wanna put down everything...
I don't want to think anything else more...
Although I know its hard, but i have to try...

Its the time now...for me to put down...

Monday, September 21, 2009


Alone at night .....
My sister went to singapore for one week + ....
Miss her ...

Friday, September 18, 2009

I never thought that I was so blind
I can finally see the truth, it's me for u
Tonight u can't imagined that i'm by ur side
Cause it's never gonna be the truth too far for u
But can u hear me say? Don't throw me away
And there's no way out, I gotta hold u somehow
I wanna, I wanna, I wanna touch u
U wanna touch me too
Everyday but all I have is time
Our love's the perfect crime
I wanna, I wanna, I wanna touch u
U wanna touch me too
Every way and when they set me free
Just put ur hands on me

Thursday, September 17, 2009

Frustrated ??!!

I don't know what am I doing nowadays, I've no idea, my mind was totally blank, blank and blank.....I don't even wanna study, seeing those books, especially those Science subjects ( Bio, Chemistry and Physics), I really wanna sleep adi...

Exam is around the corner.Hmm, its on 6 October if I'm nt mistaken, till end of October, its one month man !!! One month i can't rest well, sleep well, play well, everything !

And, till now, I still haven't talk to him yet. Its almost 2 weeks adi. I'm sad, angry, frustrated, moody.......All I wanted is just to go on happily with my life....

What can I do now ??? nothing at all !!!

I do miss him.....

Friday, September 11, 2009

Pn. Esah's Retirement

Next Wednesday, 16 Sep 2009 is Pn. Esah retirement ceremony....

Me, Stephanie, Shanae, Abee, Illynn & Farhana are going to dance some sort of 'opening dance' for the ceremony...We are using the chinese fan to dance...i know its funny when you dance some Indian & Malay steps with chinese fan but really, it looks ok, not bad...haha..this is what lingsze tell me, although i know she just want me to happy....

On that day, Stephanie & I will be wearing cheongsam, which is light blue in colour, while Shanae & Abee will wearing 'teenager sari' (forgot what we suppose to name that sari), Illynn & Farhana will be wearing baju kebaya which is pink in colour....

Today, in school, last two periods, I skip my Bio class...I went for dance...Pn Amutha was absent so we have to practice by our own....Stephanie & I changed our uniform to cheongsam to check whether we can fit in & dance with it....Stephanie looks nice in cheongsam although the cheongsam maybe too big for her but its looks really great in her....While my cheongsam, which I borrow from Hui Shin, for me its quite tight la but all of them said its ok...for 101 % that I won't wear high heel shoes because i scared I'll fall down that day when I'm dancing i front of soooooo many people....It'll definitely the second most embarassed thing in my school life if I really fall down that day...haha..touchwood touchwood, later really fall down then cham lor...

Haha..what about my first most embarassed thing in my school life???
I'll always remembered how I took a polystrene cardboard and dancing with it...Its not a dance actually, its a background dance, symbolism like that..I still can hear a lot of students giggling beside me when I'm dancing there...I was so embarassed that I wanna leave the place as soon as possible....But I can't! After the 'dance', I still need to do 'model', an umbrella promoter! I have to walk in front of so many people with the umbrella in my hand, posing myself with it and walk like a model...That's really my most embarassing moment man!!! and definitely, for 1o1 %, there won't be next time!!! I can guaranteed!

Thursday, September 10, 2009

Izzit the time to stop ???

Haih..i not sure whether I'm doing the right thing now........
I feel like I'm wasting my time, my effort on something that couldn't happened at all !!!

I wanna to put down everything but my heart, my mind won't ever let me do this....
Everytime, every single moment doing nothing but just thinking on something impossible at all......
Why am I so stupid ??? Why I wanna waste my time, everything ???
I can't control myself....

Now, izzit the time to stop ???

Friday, September 4, 2009

A Friend's Love says:

" If you ever need anything,
I'll be there."

True Love says:

" You'll never need anything;
I'll be there."

What word best describes myself?

1. If you found a what of cash on the ground you would,

~I would take it all for myself~

2. On a saturday you would be found,
~Walking around thinking my own world~

3. One of your friends gets sick and ends up ruining her clothes so you,
~give her a jacket so she can cover her shirt~

4. If you won a million dollars, what would you do with it?
~go spend it all on something really stupid~

5. What do you think best describes you?
~laughing, fun, jokeful~