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Thursday, December 31, 2009

Its, NOT a Happy New Year...

i woke up this morning, before 9am...
and then, when i woke up, my bro told me that my uncle, in kedah, just passed away this morning...
omg, i was like, so shocked!!! it was like something impossible? he looked, so healthy...

he was a close uncle of mine...
he treats me very good, and i love him too...
i was, thought to celebrate new year eve in desa park city...
but now, i don't think so...i'm so sad...not even in mood to do anything now...

he was admitted to hospital two days ago...in icu yesterday...and today he passed away...
it, just, happened, at a sudden...
and, actually, we are responsible on his death...
i dunno how to tell here...it just that, i feel that i got responsible...
i dunno...

and sorry to make him unhappy again...
i just not in a good mood today...
he understand right?

Wednesday, December 30, 2009

u're confused ?

hmm, i dunno what to do, actually...maybe just trying to sort things out?
i hope...
everything will be alright, now...
was, seriously, sad yesterday :(
not feeling like wanna talk about yesterday...
forget it...

hmm, upload photos tdy...in my fb & blog...
kinda sleepy but can't sleep, again?

some photos during trip in hatyai & genting



sleepy :(

      
retarded looks :P



in car


in hatyai :)


in 'tut tut'  :)


  
retarded looks again xP


first world hotel



my cousin & me in tired looks

 
with 3D specs


strawberry farm


yummy  !!!


  my sis & me


strawberries in bottle :)






  

Monday, December 28, 2009

so tired now...

haiz...did house chores the whole day weeyyy!!!
my hand swollen adi :(  very pain...
hmm, kinda moody the whole day...do what also kena marah wan...dunno whether i'm lucky or unlucky lor...
its not my fault, but then it can become my fault huh? weird...

so tired today...wanna sleep but can't...
still sick...flu, cough, sore throat...

and tomorrow,
i'm going to the dentist...very scared...
papa said have to do operation wan leh...not dare to go adi...
my teeth very pain now...can't eat, can't talk well, can't even move my mouth well  :(
scared scared...

Sunday, December 27, 2009

hopeless...

i, seriously, dunno what do now...
i'm sad...very sad, till i really dunno, dunno what i want, what i'm thinking, what's in my mind....
this feeling, is so terrible...and i hate it !

i know, its my fault...
its my problem...
and there's been a lot of problem between me and him these days...

and i'm scared now...
i'm really, very very scared now...

Saturday, December 26, 2009

back from genting !!!

hmm, holidays gonna finish soon...
well, kinda enjoyed my holidays, especially in genting...
lotsa pics took there :)
went genting with my sister and my cousin, sweet yee...
went outdoor theme park and had a lot of fun too...
we even went for space shot...screamed like mad >.<
went to strawberry farm on the way down the hill too :)
hmm, pics in thailand, will upload next time...
and, sorry...
for him...
again!!! i did it again!!!



so misty




theme park tickets :)




:)




waiting for queue :(




in strawberry farm




smile :)




strawberry juice, strawberry jam, strawberries :)

Friday, December 25, 2009

Merry Christmas & happy anniversary!!!

jingle bell jingle bell jingle on the way...

Merry Christmas!!! so happy today...
hmm, finally got a chance to spend my christmas in genting this year!
i'll definitely go to snow world weyyy!!!
i loveeeeee snow  :)

btw, happy 3rd anniversary too!
its 3rd anniversary now...
i'm happy, happy & happy !!!

Wednesday, December 23, 2009

zzzzz

urgh...still in kedah...
weather super duper hot weyyy!!!
and i'm sick now...
especially at night, i hardly can breathe, because of the stupid dong dong flu!!
kinda tired these few days...but dunno why i can't sleep...miss him too much, i guess huh??
well, anyway, going to spend my christmas in genting this year !

i don't care who are you, right now...
i'm happy with my life now...
so, get off!!!

Tuesday, December 22, 2009

just back from thailand...

sooooo tired...hmm, just back from thailand, hatyai...
hmm, overall, the trip there wasn't that bad...but it could be better, i guess...
bought lotsa stuff from there...
shoes, handbag, short pants, clothes, everything...
tired walking at all those streets...so many people there...quite scaring if u get lost there...
will upload photos next time...
well, got a chance to sit their taxi, 'tut tut' they called  :)
so cute the name...tut tut tut tut....
no mood to blog today...
haiz...
missing him, sooooo much...

Saturday, December 19, 2009

vacation, tomorrow...

going for vacation tomorrow...
going to Kedah, and then going to Hatyai from there...
hmm, maybe going back to KL before christmas, most probably...
then going to genting during christmas and spend one night there with my cousins...
i'll miss u guys, him, the most...

Friday, December 18, 2009

My SLIPPERS ???

urgh urgh!!! i lost my slippers!!!
haiz, just lost my necklace and now lost my slippers...
i was so embarrassed that time...haiz...
came out from the tuition, but no shoes to go home..
haiz...
i gotta find out the shoe stealer one day!!!

btw...going on vacation next week, probably this sunday...
haiz....gonna miss him...

Wednesday, December 16, 2009

so SAD ...

crap la...i lost my necklace !!!
that's, was, one of my favourite necklace...
its, special for me...
but now, all gone :(
i feel so sad right now...

loveeee the OUTING :)

went mid valley today...
hmm, watched princess & the frog :)
the movie not bad, actually...enjoyed the movie very much, where this time, was different xP
hmm, can't write here what happened today...but nvm, i enjoyed myself very much today :)

Tuesday, December 15, 2009

glad that everything is fine now, i think...

went the curve yesterday...bought lotsa stuffs, especially FOOD,  coz i'm hungry  xP
woke up quite early today, but kinda sleepy, yet...hmm, but nvm...woke up early and do house chores la...
errm, he went driving lesson tdy, hmm listened to undang...kinda bored when didn't text with him...but nvm, again...because,  hmm...SECRET  xP

going out tomorrow...to mid valley...muahaha  xD
finally, free from home...so happy...

went ms lee tuition just now...
she starts her nagging, again...
why don't take account arr? why don't u trust me leh? u see, the government sure change their mind d...bla bla bla...haiz...
lucky i used to it adi...

feel relieved now...
no nid to feel guilty anymore...no nid to care bout someone anymore...
its a good thing, now...everything back to normal :)

Sunday, December 13, 2009

sleep, finally :)

yeah !!! finally, can sleep yesterday...
although was not long as usual, but at least i sleep :)
these days, i can't sleep, especially at night...
i dunno why...i'm tired, but just can't close my eyes...weird...

but, yesterday i can sleep :)
i slept for four hours :) so happy.....
because of him i can sleep yesterday...thx yea :)

still sick...
hates flu the most !!!

Saturday, December 12, 2009





" I'll do anything, ANYTHING, to make u forget everything, and have your happy life back !!! "




WHAT TO DO NOW ?

I'm making things worse, right?
I really dunno, now...

Urgh, i feelin' so sad now...
i can't do anything now, to help him...to comfort him...
i'm sry...

be happy k?
that's the only thing, i want from u...
that's all...
one simple thing, HAPPY...

Friday, December 11, 2009

fu-yoh !!!

1st time, i stay up awake...
i haven't sleep for one night weyy !!!

i can't sleep...
i was sad, very very sad...
suddenly, everything rushed into my mind, everything !!!
i cried alone, at night...
i feel, suffered...
heart pain, very very pain...
like someone stabbing my heart, non-stop !!!

i feel, hopeless...

P.S

hmm, maybe will not update this blog adi...
errrrr, i'll still update but not always adi...
coz, now currently busy working on another blog...
and soon, this blog will become private too...

Thursday, December 10, 2009

still, SICK...

minhua is having her birthday party today...
she invited me, but i can't go because i gt tuition, too bad  T.T
i wanna goooooooooooo !!!  :(

still, sick...urgh!!!
i hate eating those dong dong medicines!!!
i can't swallowed the big big tablets  :(
don't have apetite nowadays...
can't eat much now, dunno why...haiz...

got 2 tuition later...
chemistry and english...
tired having tuition, somemore in holiday mood ar...

haha, weihan, the big big monkey xP
he's going to belanja makan...muahaha :D
planning which day to go out now...
i'll definitely order the most expensive food there, hahaha :)
bet he'll complain to lyn after that...

Wednesday, December 9, 2009

officially, SICK ...

went to see doctor this morning...
doc said that i got slightly fever...
well, i didn't know that i got fever also...
the doc gave me antibiotics, flu and cough medicines...
i hate antibiotics :(   tablets so bigggggieee....

the medicine makes me sick, more...
i feel so dizzy after took my medicine...
all i know is sleep, sleep and SLEEP !!!
become a piggieeee adi xP

miss him very much...
because i sleep sleep sleep, can't text with him...
wanna text him so much :(

cheer me up, pls...

make me happy, plssss...
if i can't even happy, how can i cheer him up?
i wanna make him happy too...
i really hope i can know what's in his mind now....

i really, do know what U want from me...
i really, do know what U're thinking, what's in ur mind, too...
maybe U hate me, maybe U cursed, or scold behind me, whatever is it...
i don't care...
U took away my confidence, everything...

it'll be fine right?

the only, HIM...

" ILOVEYOU "

Tuesday, December 8, 2009

breaking free...

went ms lee tuition just now...
before that, i went emily's house to discuss add math hw...
i dunno how to do the form 5 chapter 2, graph type question...
haiz...slept quite late the other day...somemore woke up early today :(
my panda eyes arrrr  T.T

haiz...in ms lee tuition...
feel terrible, TERRIBLE !!!
i know I'm stupid...to give up account...
but u don't have to say it and say it again right? how the hell i know the government will chg their mind huh?
i think for long...
and i think i'll still follow with my decision...
i give up account...i know everyone will say that i'm stupid, really very stupid to give up account coz account is the most easiest subject to get an A...

but still, i think i can't...
coz i dun understand...i can't remember the formula also...
even if i consider to take account again, its late adi...

hmm, if can la...i will take art...
honestly, i love art, very much...but the problem is, my parents not really agree with me....
i wanna have art lesson now...i miss my drawings, miss the moments i had before in my art class last 2 years...
i can draw watever i want, watever i like...
really wanna go for art lesson, if its possible...

am i the one who make him sad?
without me, will he be more happy?
i really dunno now...
i don't have my confidence, anymore...

Seeking ...

haha...only one tuition tdy...
nicholas tuition will only starts from january...
ms lee tuition still will continue until the last week of december...

lyn lyn not here...
i miss her...nobody talk secret with me leh...
somemore cannot gossip lor  xP

read the Pearl so many times adi...but can't get it...
totally can't understand lor :(
haiz...no choice...keep on reading la...
sure can understand one day d  :P

tdy, his final day of spm...
gonna free after this...so happy for him...
he got chemistry today...
hope he can do well la...pray for him :)

Monday, December 7, 2009

finger crossed...

i hope its not late yet...
i'll let him know...
after his spm...

i don't want to disturb him...
and i don't want to affect his studies, his results, his spm...

i'll let him know...
EVERYTHING, as he wished...

pls...
forgive me...
for everything...
i'm hurting him, badly...
and...
my heart hurts too...

i'll rather myself to suffer, to sad, in pain...
i won't let him to be unhappy...
my promise to him...
my own promise...

and YOU...
i won't forgive u...
u makes my life miserable...
u ruined my life...
who are u???
me and u knows that !!!

Because YOU loved Me ...


papa bought a laptop for my bro yesterday...
they went pc fair the other day...
my bro was very happy :)

mama gonna buy me a laptop, too :)
so happy, but not now la...

went to school this morning...
to accompany my sis to take her results...
she's kinda nervous the other night...
can't sleep bla bla bla...
but then...
she get number 4 in her class ^^
so happy for her...

saw szemei in school too...chit chatting with her while waiting for my sis...
saw joe's bro too...haha, he's cute :)  totally diff from joe...

doing ms lee hw...add math was tough T.T
gonna start to do revision i think...no much time to waste adi...a lot of basic thing, i dun even know...
gotta GAMBATEH adi !!!

Sunday, December 6, 2009

I'm freakingly SAD...

gosh!!!
wanna cry so badly...

why am i in the h*** so stupid huh?!!
why i choose to hide, u stupid!!
why i choose to keep quiet, u idiot!!
why i choose to become a weakling, u dong dong!!!

i'm not a good gf...
i always make him sad...
i don't even know how to make him happy back...
all i know is...
make him angry, sad, emo...
I"M HURTING HIM :(

Ruin my life now !!!

went to my uncle's shop just now...
his shop open day today...

i pretended to be happy...
its suffering...

this is what u want isn't it huh?
i'm sad, i'm suffering huh?!!
u did it !!!

whole again ?


all of u...

my friends...

my best friends...

my special ones...

makes me WHOLEAGAIN !

More Pictures :)




Pictures with my baby cousin, en en :)








en en, my baby cousin :)
she's cute...
always make me happy when i'm sad...
love her...

Saturday, December 5, 2009

Away from this .....

its tiring...
thinking of something stupid, that won't happened.....
why am i so scared?
just do whatever u like k?
just go your own way...
don't think about 'the person' anymore k?
forget about 'the person' !!!
i'm being such a weakling...
there's no need to mind...
what 'the person' think, what 'the person' write, what 'the person' curse.....


I gotta get out of this...
I got my own life...
I'm happy with my life now...


I love you, not only for what you are...
but for what I am when I am with you...

Fluuuuuuuu :(

Sick arh...
very very sick now...
my flu...
dunno got how long adi...
can't cure :(

nowadays always raining somemore...
feelin' so cold...
specially at night...
sneezing non-stop...

hope it'll be fine soon...
i don't want to sick anymore...
suffering urghhhh :(

Friday, December 4, 2009

Happily ever after ?

Its gonna be happily ever after right ?
Or it won't ?


Whatever the answer is...
i don't care...
i'll just follow my instinct...
i choose to be...
won't regret...
that's it...


and YOU...
i won't think about u anymore...
i will try my best so that i won't affected by u...
u got your life...
and so am I...
so...
GO AWAY !!!



CountDOWN ...

21 days more...
Its Christmas...i wanted to celebrate christmas somewhere where got SNOW...i love snow, very much...tat's why i love winter...

and christmas, is also the anniversary day of me & him...
its 3 months then :)
thinking of how to celebrate with him since he finished his spm adi :)
but, i'm afraid i'm on vacation...
my mama wanted to celebrate christmas in singapore this year...or else go bangkok shopping
i wanted to go on vacation but at the same time i wanna celebrate with him, too :(

but anyway...
a surprise for him, maybe?
there's something in mind now, an idea :D
but i wonder whether it works a not...
it need time to prepare that 'stuff'...
hmm, just give it a try la :P

hohoho, jingle bell, jingle bell, jingle on the way.....
muahaha, crazy adi  XP
christmas  :)

Two hearts ♥♥




Falling in LOVE is the best way to kill your heart, because then its not yours anymore ...




when u're in love, u're not alone anymore...


when u're in love, u'll feel a connection between u & him...


when u're in love, u'll do anything for him...


when u're in love, everything will be fine as long as he's there for u...






Dong Dong Connection !!!

connection is so slow larhx...
tried to online yesterday but failed :(
thought wanna write blog and go facebook but....haiz
this morning, finally can online adi, muahaha :D
so happy...

Wednesday, December 2, 2009

photos after rebonding :)







myself ~












hair straightened










me XP














blek :P















spongebob & me

rebonding :)

went to saloon yesterday...
had my hair straighten...
waited for hours :(
it look really weird, funny, after my hair straightened...
it doesn't look like me, in the mirror...

will upload the photos asap...

Stomach in TROUBLE, big big TROUBLE :(

stomach so pain...
urgh !!! hate it when it pains...
it hurts, a lot...
pain, then no more pain, then pain again...
apply medicine, no use !
eat medicine, no use !
rest, no use !
zzz....i hate u, u creeppiiieeee STOMACH !!!